It’s been my toughest year yet. Health scares, demanding school schedules, loss, business re-structuring and an overall feeling of “underwhelm” in every department. I exercised less, ate more, drank more and spent far too much time indoors. I withdrew from friends, spent less time with my family and was in an unhealthy relationship with myself – which made me more susceptible to a series (or rather, a full-length feature) of much less than I ever deserved.
I’ve emptied my pockets, studied their contents and I genuinely feel ready for 2018. In the spirit of the new year, I wanted to talk about being thankful.
Be thankful for every single person who cares about you. Be thankful for your sense of self and the relationship that you have with yourself. Never take your individuality for granted. At the end of the day, you really are all that you have, and if you lose yourself: everything around you will fall apart. Nurture, compliment, embrace, improve and appreciate yourself as a person… every day.
Be thankful for your body. I had a few procedures done this year when my gynae suspected that I had cervical cancer. Listen, nothing levels you like thinking that your time could be cut short. Ladies: Go for those checkups. Your GP can do a pap smear or test you for HPV (a type of virus that causes cervical cancer) Woman up. Get your breasts checked, lose that weight if it’s affecting your health. Exercise, walk, run, jump. Eat good foods that nourish you. Be. thankful. for. your. body.
Be thankful for your mind. Feed it more information. Study further, learn more, think and read more. Question everything. I got into such a mental comfort zone this year and I honestly feel that I didn’t grow or learn anything new – intellectually or physically. I bought myself a new book and asked for paints and brushes for Christmas. I want to study different writing styles, learn from new authors, listen to new stories. I have a huge passion for art and instead of admiring other people’s work, I want to create something of my own. Even if it’s awful.
Next year I’m going in a few different directions because I’m disappointed in 2017. While so many great things happened, I feel like I didn’t develop enough as a person. That I wasn’t present and didn’t take care of myself. Like I didn’t really achieve anything that I’m proud of. Maybe it’s good to have a ‘gap’ year to just live… But I’m rested, re-set and ready to be so much more in 2018, but this time – with gratitude.